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grazie: skymachina @ lj (¶ Saucy wenches)
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grazie: retro_palace @ lj (¶ Comfy looking. Maybe.)
Slowly but surely keeping up with my new year's resolutions of eating out less and exercising more! Just ran outside around the area, it was unbearably slow from the speeds I used to run, and difficult as hell compared to the distances I used to run, but I'm starting to get back to where I was.

I just need a good solid 10 pounds to drop away, and I'm not sure exactly why they haven't yet. ;~; But I'm working on it, including working on standing more at work? Won't compare to the work I used to do for GCI (standing? For 8 hours straight? I had a love-hate relationship with that job, but I can't deny that it, like waitressing before it, kept me in shape), but it's getting there.

I also need to get away from making sweets. I guess my problem is I sit there and make these delicious things like cupcakes and truffles? I would like to defend myself saying, "It's rare! And I typically dump what I make at work a day or two later!" And it's true. But still, the act of making them and chocolate and-- yesterday, I had a freaking chocolate overdose just about, and I only ate one of the brownie bombs.

orz.

Still my own worst saboteur. ;~;

BUT I feel like the fact that I am cooking these things myself, and exercising more, and actually eating less, because I'm not hungry near as often is good. I've just about cut out every extraneous source of calories (I drink coffee during my set, but water and the occasional thing of juice or chocolate milk (about one per day if that) for the rest of the time). I don't keep snacks in the house-- but I never did.

I've already seen how eating snacks while doing other things completely leads to eating an entire thing of like almonds when you really didn't mean to eat the whole bag, thanks Dad.

I just... feel okay with the habits I have, though I wish it was translating into faster weight loss. But... I'm sure by summer, my complaining will be a thing of the past.

For now, I'm really, really wanting to get next Thursday off somehow, so I can take advantage of 40% off at Gap, omg. ;~; I need new summery things!!

/rrrrambles

also. mad men season 6 poster is out. i want to know where the hell the mad men season 5 box set is-- that is a must buy immediately item for me.
grazie: whomever @ lj (¶ FUCKING WHOOSH)


Man, fuck this guy. And I wish I had the energy to hit enter, because the entire screed was just so offensive, on the level of minor petty political bullshit that will never not be both alternately offensive and comedic because it's just that over the top.

Like Rush Limbaugh. That is what this reminds me of.

aaaaaaargh

Feb. 27th, 2013 06:42 pm
grazie: prosecutingly @ lj (¶ Bout to lay the smackdown)
I fucking hate admin days. Somehow, I've managed to avoid most of the ones we've had since I've been on shift. But today was just a nightmare.

Admin days, for better or worse, as so we don't have to go on 'leave' for having a four day weekend. It's a stupid bureaucratic rule that basically ensures that, no matter what, we are working four days a week. Even though our schedule is supposed to be 4 on, 3 off, 3 on, 4 off. And they're supposed to be a 6 hour day, and most of the time they are! Today was not a 6 hour day, though.

And I'm stupid exhausted because of it. Originally, there was no plan given to us for today's day. None, so I assumed the plan was show up at 8 for the Current Intelligence Brief, go 'PT' for an hour and a half, "shower" for two hours, and then go home.

But, no, I got a last minute text about a commander's call at 3. So I figured, "Okay, show up at like 12, then..." BUT NO, SOMEONE SCHEDULED ORGANIZED PT AT 9:30??? AND THEN SAID THE COMMANDER WOULD BE THERE? fucking jerks. So I showed up at 9:30, finally get to leave at 5:30 after all is said and done. And the commander didn't even show up at 9:30 for PT with us.

Keep in mind that between PT and the commander's call, I had literally nothing to do. There wasn't a plan, I'm current on my medical stuff, and my ancillary training is all up to date. I wasn't on the bad-boy list for mock PT tests or any of our Go, No Go requirements.

Today was SUCH. A MONUMENTAL. WASTE. OF MY TIME.

And I'm mad about it, and my ankle and knee are killing me from walking around in blues all day. I hate that uniform with the passion of a thousand suns. Argh, fml.

Good news, I guess, is I get Friday off! So... that's something, right? H. Hahaha.

orz. I want to go to bed and it's only 7 o'clock. Where the fuck has my energy gone? I'm tired all the damn time now.

arrrrrgh.
grazie: divisionsix @ lj (¶ The most convincing)
I think. I may want to try and make these.

The Bailey's, Jameson, and the Guinness alone will bring the bill for making these up to like 40 bucks when combined with all the other ingredients. But buy those once, and you don't have to buy them again with the exception of possibly the Bailey's, so... And I do love drop shot drinks.

Anyway, been wavering on and off with bad feels for awhile, so I might try to just keep my head down for a few weeks. And see if that helps with anything.

I need something to cook tomorrow that will last me all set for food, too. :/a Any suggestions would be appreciated.
grazie: luxrays @ lj (¶ All I hear is Blah Blah Blah)
Read an interesting article on Buzzfeed about the "Hey girls did you know" meme... which is a tumblr thing that's designed to tell girls "Hey girls, did you know you spread nutella, not your legs?" Basically, it's more of the same slut shaming thing. And I've been thinking about when girls spread misogynistic references.

One of my extremely conservative facebook friends got into a fight with another one of his friends after posting a hypocritical post about "LIBERTY!!" where the girl mockingly pointed out his support for things like vaginal ultrasounds before abortions. I know, this seems like kind of a tangent, but I'll bring it back around!

Anyway, they got into a lengthy discussion/argument, where finally she told him he had no right to judge because the issue does not affect him directly. And he pointedly responded that he guaranteed that he would feel the same way even if he were a woman, all he needed to do was point to his mom and his sisters. And then he told her to drop the subject.

Some of the biggest arguments I have gotten into with regards to abortion have been with women. Their being women doesn't suddenly make the position not misogynistic in nature. But I've been thinking back to this, and then to the "Hey girls, did you know" thing on Tumblr, and how the most popular/reblogged images are the ones from women.

There's this inherent idea among society that women can speak the best to women's issues. It's true, but not the position that I take issue with-- it's the idea that if a woman is saying the exact thing you as a man are thinking, that must mean your position is true, even if there are millions of women speaking the exact opposite of what you say. It's this type of illogical followthrough that makes "Hey girls, did you know" and male abortion opponents feel better that they're the ultimate authority-- because there's a small contingency of women that are vocal about agreeing with them.

Or that are given a more vocal position without the type of derogatory shit-flinging that other women get. See: Sandra Fluke and how she is still villianized to this day, or how the Republicans are ready to about-face on liking Hillary Clinton if she shows any interest in getting legitimately back into politics.

I know, I'm speaking to the choir here, but it bothers me. Anti-abortion activists are overwhelmingly male, 73% was the last quoted statistic I'd heard, but poll after poll shows women are not on the pro-life side, with some caveats.

It's infuriating that the one woman, figuratively, that says something men agree with means women's opinions are invalidated. Because women agree with men! What's your problem?

Argh. Maybe next time that asshole on my facebook gets into an argument like this, I'll just. Actually say something, even though I hate dignifying a man's opinions on my rights with a response. And even though I know it won't change his opinion at all, because unless it comes from a conservative source, it's biased.

Ugh.
grazie: besito @ lj (¶ I'm smart!)
So, watching Supersize vs. Superskinny has me thinking about my relationship with food. .-. So I think I'm going to keep a journal about what I eat and drink? Since I kind of want to know how I eat. IT WAVERS BETWEEN REALLY HEALTHY, I FEEL, and really, really.... stereotypical American. So, let's get down to it. I know I was raised with an extremely unhealthy relationship-- mom and dad never made me try things, and so I subsisted off of instant mashed potatoes, ramen noodles, pot pies, and pizza rolls, with the almost weekly mcdonalds. if not for braces and the pain i went through with them BREAKING APART THE ROOF OF MY MOUTH I would be a lot worse off... because that encouraged me to not eat. :')

It wasn't til I actually started living on my own in a non-college context that I started trying to experiment with food and cooking. So, like. Living with Ry and Jeva is around when I started cooking things! And cooking things that were relatively healthy at that. But the fact that I was standing for 10 hours plus a day at my job in Seattle really hid the fact that I was still eating out most of the time. Kind of like waitressing in college hid that I never ate at home.

I feel really dumb, but I bought an exceptionally expensive set of cookingware and knives at a show this week. But it comes with a lifetime warranty that transfers to my progeny (children and grandchildren apparently), so if that is true and I never have to buy pots and pans again, I think it will be worth it.

Plus he baked a fucking cake in the pot. I sat there and was amazed that a cake baked perfectly. In a pot on a burner.

So I'm torn on "yes good decision" and "hnnnngh but price." But. I'm putting away a large chunk of money into savings. And if that keeps up, I shouldn't have to worry at all.

I'm also planning on scheduling the GMAT for about 3 months from now-- gonna take it and if I get a high score, which I've been doing pretty good on the practice tests I've taken, I'll schedule for one final GRE test, and then start getting together all the things I need to apply to go to the University of Chicago. I'll be eligible for my GI Bill benefits in June, so if I apply to go in fall 2014, I can go get a good degree for free.

I'm also going to apply to UC Berkley and the University of Washington. Because no matter what, I am going to grad school in 2014. I'm not staying in the Air Force. I'm just SO tired of it, and I still have a little under a year and a half to go. I will focus on not making anymore BIG purchases, and pay down as much as I can on both my car (which I will probably increase the payments significantly 1) when I pay off this credit card, which has one more month of payments at the current rate and 2) when I get my pay raise in June.) and these pans I bought, while saving money.

I've set a savings goal of about $15000 for June after next, as well. If I can get that much saved up, I'll be in good shape for moving wherever I have to move. Which means significantly cutting on bullshit like eating out often. (see, now the pans have a purpose! probably >_>) Once I file my taxes and get my return, I'll probably throw that at the pan-set, and be off to a good start of just... getting everything paid off.

huff hrfff. We'll see. OKAY THIS IS ENOUGH BABBLE aaaaaahhhhhh thinking too much about the future gets me so excited gawd.
grazie: xxpyrography @ lj (¶ Smug bastards everywhere)
I SAW WARM BODIES THE OTHER DAY. It was okaaaay. Cute, but not really my type of movie. And I couldn't help but cringe when she started making out with the zombie. Yes, we know he was alive by that point-- but when was the last time he, I dunno, brushed his teeth, for instance? >_< Couldn't deal with it.

I've also been watching a lot of Supersize vs. Superskinny. I don't know why-- it's not particularly enjoyable to watch the two make passive aggressive comments at each other over meals. And I hate the constantly referring to America as a fat nation. Nothing not true, just not enjoyable. I also just gape at some of the meals? Ssssssoooo much grease and fat, versus... the very little of nothing on the others' plates...

I also do like some of the FYI, this is what your food is made of and what it can do to you from Dr. Christian, but. I dunno, this is like that time I went on a Toddlers and Tiaras binge.

Anyway, I think I'm really glad to get back to work. I didn't think I'd say that, but. Being at home as much as I have been, I think I need time away from just... everything here. Meh! But hopefully, I'll be able to go to Tahoe soon and do a ski trip, maybe!

Anyway, I think that's it today.
grazie: namidadrop @ lj (¶ Preeeeetty)
MY ATTEMPT TO REIGN IN MY COMMUNICATION GAFFES HAS HIT TWO SUCCESSFUL DAYS STRAIGHT. Party! I still log into plurk, obviously. But it's much more based on talking to others, because I know I will miss stuff if I adamantly refuse to check it (and I would fail horribly at this new resolution...). But all in all, it's not been a bad attempt. Sometimes I log in to share things I find interesting...

(

I'm very easy to please...)

But there's been some updates to toss out! On the Don't Say Gay bill that I posted about yesterday, Tennessee's governor, Bill Haslam, has said he doesn't support it. So hopefully Knoxville's Stacy Campbell (a man) will knock it the fuck off. But then there was another thing in the news about a man in Jackson, TN turning in his dog because he thought he was gay.

God damn, Tennessee.

Also, Syria is making things worse again. Or Israel made things worse, and Syria is jumping on the bandwagon. But it feels like it's a literal powderkeg out there, and I'm kind of worried. Syria's claiming the right to retaliate against Israel's strike. Which, normally I would say, "Makes sense." But if Israel's unstated reason for striking is true, I'm torn. Because that would complicate it. We have made international strikes on terrorism a legitimate thing.

From the US in Afghanistan, Iraq, Pakistan, and possibly Libya depending how you look at it... to the current French intervention in Mali... To attacks on the FARC in Columbia. We've legitimized that, and Syria is literally not in a position to govern itself. And part of me is thinking Assad wants to drag the world into this. But I can't figure out why, them counter striking Israel would do no one any good.

I don't know, I can't figure out what the point of dragging the US and Iran into a more combative stance does for anyone. And Russia! But who knows what side of this Russia's going to sit on, since they've pretty much abandoned their support for Assad's regime the moment they took their citizens and got the hell out of dodge.

Feel free to correct me on any of these things! I haven't been paying close attention to this because it's my break and I know I'll hear about it the moment I go back to work. This is just based off of the Foreign Policy briefs I get emailed to me in the morning, so... Not comprehensive, at all.

/rambles, then goes to work out
grazie: whomever @ lj (¶ Balthier is unimpressed)
Been reading the news lately, and I'm just... not really impressed with the big name items. Keeping in mind, I read the news much more avidly at work than I do at home, so some of these stories may be dated... I just don't want to spend my off time stressing about these things. Which makes no sense, especially when they relate to me, but! Anyway, a list.

Tennessee has brought back its 'Don't Say Gay' bill. I'm fuzzy on how the first one failed, since Tennessee's a pretty conservative state. But let's hope this one meets a similar fate, because this one is even worse than the old one-- now teachers would have to tell parents if they thought their children might be gay?

The logic behind it makes no fucking sense to me. It seems designed to forcibly out kids so that their parents can fix them? Who am I kidding, that is exactly the intent. If you beat them and shame them enough, that'll show those gay kids. And then they'll be straight! Traumatized, but that's better than being gay.

Can't wait to fucking be done with this state.

I was planning on cheering for the 49ers, for the Superbowl? But then I found out about Chris Culliver's comments. And this may sound naive of me, but how do you even come from a football team with the name 'San Francisco' in it and make comments about how gay people just need to get the hell out of the NFL? You would think being in close proximity from one of the most liberal cities in America would make the point for you.

But I guess bigotry exists everywhere.

The last abortion clinic in Mississippi has received notice that its license is being revoked. And then NARAL put out a really interesting graphic: See where your state ranks in the nation with number of restrictions on abortion.

Some of the placements were really surprising to me. But still, I'm honestly really distressed about the women in Mississippi. And I'm worried that because of the lack of abortion clinics in Mississippi, they'll go.. where? Probably to Memphis, if they're from the top half of the state. Probably to Louisiana or Alabama on the bottom half. And Tennessee isn't super restrictive for abortion, surprisingly, but what if that just encourages it? It's frustrating as hell.

Then there's immigration. Gun control. Syria. I've taken to hiding my conservative facebook friends' statuses, because I just don't want to deal with it. Already pissed my family off at me, so it's just easier for everyone involved if I just hide what I don't like and sit on my hands.

Finally, Going to church no more makes you a christian than standing in a garage makes you a car.
grazie: luxrays @ lj (¶ All I hear is Blah Blah Blah)
From the New York Times:

The Syrian government said that Israeli warplanes had carried out an airstrike inside its territory on Wednesday, raising the risks that the two-year-old civil conflict in Syria could spread beyond the country’s borders.

This is just becoming more and more of a mess, isn't it? I have a feeling once Afghanistan ends, they'll be pushing us all to Turkey or Cyprus. I would place money on that right now, actually. Argh. Plus, the reports that the Syrian Army HAS used chemical weapons. Though I think those have been discredited now?

Ironically, I haven't been following this very closely. I guess I just don't want to know.

Cooking.

Jan. 30th, 2013 12:52 am
grazie: besito @ lj (¶ I'm smart!)
Okay, so... I did some cooking tonight! I went with an asian style dinner, and now I have left overs ready for lunch and dinner for the next few days. :9 This is part of my very serious attempt to get a lot better at cooking. I made riceballs with smoked salmon (with a home made marinade, and some of them with avocado), and spicy shoyu ramen.

Pictures are as follows:

Photos! )

The shoyu ramen recipe was given to me (it was located here)! But the riceballs were a recipe I got in college, and I haven't made them since then, so I'm really surprised I remembered the recipe.

I used 1 1/2 cups of rice,
a teaspoon of rice vinegar
a pinch of sugar

for the rice.

Then, for the salmon, next time I'll probably try to find fresh salmon, so the smoked taste doesn't overwhelm the marinade, which is honey, soy sauce, and teriyaki sauce mixed together to cover the salmon. Let it marinate for about 30 minutes, though it can be done longer.

All in all? It actually came out really well, for someone who made this WAY too late, and was completely inexperienced.

And I'll have dinner for as long as I want it, tbh. At least the next week or so, with the parts left over from the ramen. And I've got a new website to browse for some recipes (I'm eyeing the chicken masala recipe)...

I'll have to show some of my other successful recipes. I made a chicken with mushroom cream sauce the other day that tasted WAY better 3 days in the fridge later than it did the night I made it. Makes me really glad I didn't toss the whole thing when I was tempted to... Ahem. Anyway, yes. spamming my cooking. +_+

One of my new year's resolutions is to practice cooking a lot! And I've been pretty varied in the things I've cooked, even if they've. mostly been chicken recipes. I can't help it. I love chicken. |D;;

Anyway, last post of the night. I think it's about time to hit the sack.
grazie: luxrays @ lj (¶ All I hear is Blah Blah Blah)
Okay, so I decided to switch back to doing the journal thing. Why? Because Plurk really is a bad form of communication in a lot of ways. I can PM people or email them to get a complete thought out, or read a complete thought from them. (And I don't know if it had to do with the new anonymous function coming up, but it was hiding responses on me? Which makes it even more of a crappy form of communication.)

But I'm also kind of sick of my own impulse to try and overshare. And take responses as a form of people responding to me as meaning they are reading me. Which is crappy-- since I definitely only responded to a few people myself. No one needs to know every half-assed thought I have, either.

So, to get back into the idea of communicating in full thoughts, and not sharing everything I have to say, I'mma try this. If nothing else, I can go back to plurk later. It's just another thing to make an attempt at. IF I DON'T SUCCEED, well, the attempt was made. There might be two entries today, though, because I want to make some new food and I wanna do a food post ;w; So yes.

That was it! I HAVE A JOURNAL, WITH A COOL NAME. MIGHT AS WELL USE IT, RIGHT?
grazie: skymachina @ lj (Default)
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grazie: skymachina @ lj (Riku [Peaceful sleep])
I haven't posted in months, however!

It is that time of year again.

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Oct. 1st, 2011 12:23 pm
grazie: skymachina @ lj (Balthier [Oh really?])
Long time no see! I'm sorry I haven't really updated my journal in ages. I've been too tired to come type out a long, drawn out entry. I still kinda am that way BUT TODAY!! TODAY, I HAVE PICTURES.

I'm going to be completely self-indulgent and post my pictures to show the evolution of my apartment from an empty room thing... to a place I live in. (shocking, i know. apartments are for living! who knew!)

So, I'll get started!

In the beginning, my apartment was empty. )
grazie: skymachina @ lj (Default)
I AM GOING TO TYPE IN LARGE FONT ABOUT AN IMPORTANT ISSUE.

EVERYONE KNOWS HOW WISCONSIN GOVERNOR SCOTT WALKER IS TRYING TO STRIP PUBLIC EMPLOYEES OF THEIR RIGHTS FOR COLLECTIVE BARGAINING.

AND HOW HE'S REFUSING TO NEGOTIATE WITH THEM AT ALL.

AND HOW THE WISCONSIN 14 -- THE 14 WISCONSIN SENATE DEMOCRATS -- HAVE FLED THE STATE TO PREVENT THE GOP FROM GETTING QUORUM.

AND PASSING THIS BILL.

THIS IS NOT ABOUT MAKING 'SHARED SACRIFICE.' THE UNIONS HAVE ALREADY AGREED TO THE CUTS WALKER WANTS TO IMPOSE ON THEM. THIS IS AN ALL OUT ATTACK ON THE MIDDLE CLASS AND WORKER'S RIGHTS.

IF YOU DIDN'T KNOW ANY OF THAT, CONGRATS, YOU NOW DO.

IF YOU THINK UNIONS AREN'T NECESSARY, BECAUSE WE HAVE WORKER'S RIGHTS NOW, HOW THE HELL DO YOU THINK WE GOT THEM? WHO THE HELL DO YOU THINK FIGHTS FOR THE WORKERS WHEN THEY'RE VIOLATED?

THE GOP ARE TRYING TO TAKE ADVANTAGE OF THESE MISCONCEPTIONS ABOUT UNIONS TO STRIP THEM OF THEIR POWER.

MOVEON.ORG IS HOLDING PROTESTS IN SOLIDARITY IN EVERY STATE CAPITOL AND MANY MAJOR CITIES TOMORROW.

LOOK FOR THE CLOSEST PROTEST HERE: http://pol.moveon.org/event/events/index.html?rc=tw&action_id=238

MOST IMPORTANTLY, LET EVERYONE KNOW THAT THESE ATTACKS CANNOT BE TOLERATED. NOT IN THE MIDST OF GIVING THE BIGGEST EARNERS OF AMERICAN WEALTH A TAX CUT.

NOT WITH LIES ABOUT SHARED SACRIFICE, WHILE THE VALUE OF THE MIDDLE CLASS HAS DECLINED 14% IN THE PAST TWO YEARS, WHILE THE VALUE OF THE TOP 2% HAS INCREASED 36%.

THANK YOU.


No, I'm not apologizing for that. And you better fucking believe my ass is headed to Austin tomorrow.
grazie: skymachina @ lj (Ohgodwhat [Shaun])
Alright. The minigame I mentioned awhile ago? I think I am going to continue from my Oceana CFUW plot.

For those that don't know, I did a game of Cry Wolf where wolves were working for a traitorous Mr. Jones, that was trying to find out more about the company/destroy it from the inside. I'd have to refresh my memory on the characters a bit, revamp it a little... But I'd like to continue that, in the spirit of creepy exploration game that's much more freestyle.

Can I get a hand count for how many would want to play in that? And with what character, if you could? I'll make this post public, if you want to invite any friends.

Since it's freestyle, it won't be too tied into how much time you have. And if anyone else wants to help me out from behind the scenes, that works too.

EDIT: ... I just realized, NOT EVERYONE EVER is in CFUD. So here is the rundown on how this will play out:

Theme: I will try to base this firmly in reality with some supernatural hints. There will be things that happen to your characters, and if you aren't careful, yes, you could possibly end up dead.
Time consumption: At your leisure. I don't think it would be cool to look at the game for five minutes every day, but you should be able to get by with a couple of hours, because we do need the plot to move. It should only last a couple of days at the longest, but it will formally wrap up when the plot is finished.
Style: HEAVY exploration. Think RubyQuest style exploration.
Where will this play out? At my musebox, [livejournal.com profile] stopinthenameof.
Are any characters banned? Right now, I'd like to limit it to fandom characters. But if you can make a case for an OC, I may consider lifting that.

This is not long term, but there may be recurring chapters based on how well it goes. So, yeah.

The story: Oceana is a pharmaceutical company and has been doing terrible things to their customers... and employees. Jones is the name of a man working to oust the company from the inside. No one knows exactly where to find him. But the company is looking desperately, while searching for new recruits.

We will probably have a game chat on IRC. But I'll show you how to get there if you're not familiar with it.

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